Not much from my parents, but I was a big outcast in elementary and middle school so when anyone that is not foreign treats me like a human when I show my real personality, it feels a bit sus…

Fuck, I can’t even get a hug or affection from my SO without cringing sometimes because I wasn’t really hugged as a kid

Sometimes I get hugged and I feel like someone is exploiting my need for affection so I immediately reject it. I am not normal.