If you are thinking about harming yourself — get immediate crisis support. Connect to a crisis counselor 24/7, 365 days a year, from anywhere in the U.S via text, chat, or phone. The Trevor Project is 100% confidential and 100% free.

https://www.thetrevorproject.org/get-help/

  • Kericake🥕 (They(/It))@pawb.socialEnglish
    5·
    1 month ago

    Rar? Eugh, feels today. Also head kinda still messed from yesterday (see thing). Hmmmm lessee.

    So, feels. Emotional 🧠y strugglifications are happening in various ways. Not sure I’m capable of really bonding or feeling belongy or anysuch :-\ Having weird feels about where I’m at in life (also see thing <.<;) aaand Idunno even what else. Had a lil sad about the kitty we were kittysitting for like a day having to go back with his “owner” :| Clearly the lil grey fluff belongs here on my bed :3 … Where he did actually stay pretty much the whole time he wasn’t either chewing up my electronics cablestuffs or fighting/playing with the other lil ones. What a sweet lil fuff :3

    thing

    So it turns out it’s possible to trip on weed if you manage to use too much and also apparently I became a lightweight (regarding everything??) overnight before yesterday. Ask me how I kno- just kidding I know because I got knocked into a trip from one lil gummy and maybe a couple lil dabs <.< :| This was a very weird experience (my first trip! Woooo I guess 😅 ) that’s kinda been on my mind 😅 Anyway one thing it did was put me through a bunch of different perspectives and I saw myself as a previous self and was… disgusted, afraid, alone, felt like I was lost far from home 😅 Rough, weird, unpleasant… so that BS is clattering around mucking up 🧠 as if the poor thing weren’t already kindof a mouldy puddle of sludge or something.

    ^ So that experience was a whole bundle of strange and I wanna talk about it but I don’t even know what to say 😅

    Also cops stopped somecritter right out front of this place, just now :| Bleeeh!

    Edit: Oh, and I’m starting to not want to be referred to as fem. Like sometimes it’s actually irritating to be called a good girl, I kinda just "But am not girl <.<; :-" So this is awkward. fidgetywobble I’d blame 🧠 flaking out (especially after thing 😅 ) but it’s kinda been getting worse for a while. I may be… gasp sniffle et cetera, shock and surprise and darkest genderhorror…!!! … !!! A full enby?!? … That or my brain’s just fuckin’ melted. I dunno.

    [Weird rambling or something?] Anway don’t tell Josh, maybe he’ll feel awkward or something. Also hi Josh ö/ 😅 😹 So yeah. Development of my me maybe? wiggles confusily Ooooh, there’s a cute fluffy kitty! Not Soot, though, the supercuddles were taken away. I will never forgive that person for taking their cat back 😅 MJ’s being sweet, though, so that’s nice . petpets fluffbucket 🫳🐈

        • Femsoup [She/Her]@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
          2·
          1 month ago

          Mine was pretty fun, I had a very intimate relationship with a mcdonalds apple pie. McDonalds also sells plastic bags with a cut apple inside and someone had previously ordered one of those instead of the apple pie, because in german they’re almost the exact same word. I laughed for several hours at the thought that somewhere in the world somebody is cutting these apples and putting them in little plastic bags - that just seemed completely insane to me. But then when we got back to the house the party was had I thought I had lost my phone and searched the entire path we had taken from the macdonalds and back. I found it at the place we were partying after I got back but not before having emotional breakdowns the entire way to the mcdonalds and back because money is kinda tight rn and I really didn’t want to have to buy a new phone